And there are so many what ifs. What if i can't assimilate? What if i don't get a job? What if things don't work out?
I brought up this discussion with my dad recently as well and he is in fact my biggest worry. But dads being dads, they want the best for their children and want them to be happy. In as much as i don't want to be apart from him, i assured him that i will be back when he needs someone to take care of him. That is what i should and what i can do for him, as a daughter.
I am glad that the boyfriend and i had an honest, open conversation. We're no longer of that age to be happy-go-lucky but to be realistic about our circumstances. There are many sacrifices to make. Will we make it? i would be lying if i said i didn't have any fears.
In as much as i really like NZ and his parents, it is indeed a big step for me to move over. All i can do is to take baby steps, plan and save up.
1 year. Let's hope things will work out. i'm honestly terrified but i'm glad things are happening. And i'm touched. Responsibilities can be burdensome but i'll remain optimistic.
Will there be light at the end of the tunnel? We can do this.
